THOUGHTS ON MY HEART

                                             

First of all, I can't believe it's been almost a year since my last blog.  I can officially add a  new title to the list of names  people call me. This one will be, SLACKER!!!  LOL!!  Seriously though. I have missed writing. Not that I'm good at it but, I aspire to be better.

 It's amazing to look back over the year and see, where not only we as a family but,  myself  personally, are in our lives, at this very moment. Most importantly in our spiritual lives. IT'S INCREDIBL!!!  I have learned so much and continue to learn daily.  My heart's desire is to serve God with my whole heart. "And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your strength." Deuteronomy 6:5

At this time in my life I'm not sure where He wants me but, I'm ready for Him to take me where I'm suppose to be. Jeremiah 29:11 says, " For I know the plans I have for you, " says the Lord. " They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." So, if that means stepping outside my comfort zone then ok. "For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength." Phillipians 4:13

I found myself watching some youtube videos on college kids who are "Tebowing." I know you all know what that means.  If you don't however, it's when you get down on one knee,  hold your head in one hand as it rests on your other knee, and pray for three minutes. In any location. Whether mall, school, outside at a park, sidewalk on a busy street. You just stop, and kneel down and pray.  These college kids are doing it around campass. As I watched this video, it gave me chills. To see how one person's boldness to their faith in Christ  make an impact on someone elses, or just give other Christians courage to stand up boldly as well.   Why is it so hard for some Christians to stand up boldly for their faith.  It doesn't mean we have to Tebow but, what are we doing to stand out and not be conformed to this world?  What am I doing?  I've asked myself this question many times since seeing that video.   I pray that  these kids that are doing this, are doing it for the right reasons and not for personal attention. God is the only one that knows are hearts and we shouldn't judge. I've learned to pray for them instead.  Pray that God would continue to give them this boldness to reach out to others who don't know Him. 

 I love God!  He's pulled me out of some dark places and brought me to a place that I never thought would be possible.  Do I struggle with past demons? Most definetly.  God can do amazing things in the lives of those that will let Him.  It doesn't happen over night but, it does happen.  It takes work, and obedience on our part.  I must continue to pray for freedom from that bondage and grow in faith.

God says, " I love all who love me. Those who search will surely find ME." Psalm 8:17

  I have so many things to be thankful for. This last year taught me personally, how much I take for granted and how I haven't faithfully walked in my relationship with Christ. I've heard in many sermons that " YOU CAN'T LOSE YOUR SALVATION. BUT, YOU CAN LOSE YOUR TESTIMONY."  That really stuck out to me..What is my testimony? Have I thought about what people see when they see how I live my life? Do they see Christ? Or do they see someone who confesses to be a Christian and love Christ but, still live their lives the same way.   (I'll be writing up a testimony blog later on in the year.) 

 I don't spend enough time with God reading His word, praying, and stepping outside my comfort zone and sharing the Gospel with others.  I know I am missing out on the greatest blessings of all when I am not obedient in my relationship with Christ. We can't grow in our walk with Christ if we don't make an effort and allow Him to grow us. By growing we have to read His word, pray, worship Him, get involved in a good church, surround ourselves with other believers. If we don't do these things the Spirit can't grow. It's like if we don't eat, our bodies grow weak. God's word is our spiritual food we need it to grow and be strong spiritually.  It's just like any relationship here on Earth. We put so much effort in communicating and making time with our loved ones. Which is awesome but, we should be putting our relationship with God FIRST.  I wouldn't write this if I wasn't guilty of it myself. Am I living a life pleasing to God?  I have to make an effort every day to give my day to Him and seek Him.  My goal for this new year is to be more obedient, step outside my comfort zone and allow God to work through me. Read my Bible more, to have a better attitude. An attitude more like Christ. Pray more so I can grow stronger spiritualy. To be a better servant for God!  Hope you have a blessed day!!

God, You are Holy! You are worthy of all praise and honor!  You are the King of Kings, the great I AM!  There is no  God like You.  You are the master of creation, the great physician, You Lord are LIFE!  Your word is a light that brightens our paths in this dark world.  Forgive us if we aren't obedient to You. Teach us Lord how to walk in Your ways.  Teach us how to love like you love. Forgive us, when we say you are our God and we don't reach out to the lost. Give us a boldness Lord to stand up against the enemy. Open the eyes and the ears to the lost so they may see and hear Your truth. Protect those that serve you Lord in the countries where darkness is overwhelming. Give them strength and wisdom as they share your word. Thank you for what you've shown me this last year and what you are about to show me these next few weeks. Allow my heart to hear You Lord as you speak into my soul.  I love you! I praise you Father, I ask these things in the precious name of Jesus Christ.

AMEN!!